I've caught the Twilight Bug... and it's bad!

It all started when my 55 year old mother called me on the phone a few weeks ago to tell me that she went to the theater to see the movie Twilight with my 18 year old sister and she said she actually liked it. For a 55 year old to say they enjoyed a teen flick, wow, it must've been something I thought.

It was at that time I thought, I've gotta see this!



I ended up seeing the movie that weekend with a couple friends and just fell in love with the story and the characters. It was just so intriguing! Now that I had seen the movie, I wanted to read the book. There was parts of the movie that other people were laughing at that I was sitting there like... huh? cuz I didn't read the book so I didn't know what was going on inside the minds of the characters in certain scenes.

So I borrowed the book from my friend, read it in about 3 days, and I've never been this crazy about a book before in my life!!! Immediately after finishing reading Twilight, I started bidding on ebay for the other 3 books in the series, dying to know what happens next! But everyone else is so crazy about twilight as I am that everyone kept outbidding me, so I finally gave that up and went to the bookstore yesterday and bought New Moon and Eclipse. I'm on chapter 5 of New Moon and I'm really trying to take my time reading it and enjoy it but it's hard. it's just so good! and Stephenie Meyer is such a superb storyteller, she just makes you want to read more and more and more. :D

really, I hope she never stops writing.

Most Awesome Dance Created By 10 Year Old!

I just love this choreography. So much in fact, that I'm trying to learn this dance right now. love it! I can't believe how good this girl is!
you gotta see it!

Elavil Free...

I have been completely off Elavil now for quite a few weeks now. This was a difficult drug to get off and I don't know quite how I feel now. I can say that my muscle stiffness has returned, I grit my teeth more just like before, headaches are not all the time like before, but they progressively get worse by the end of the day and then I either tough it out or take 2 ibuprofen.

I'm not sure where I will go from here. I don't want to go back on Elavil since it makes you gain weight and also it's difficult to ween off. I'm not sure if anything else will work for me.

I'm pretty frustrated. Elavil makes me feel great, but I want to eat everything in sight and I don't think I have to tell ya that sometime that's gonna catch up with me!

Weening off Elavil

In two words: NOT FUN!



I have been on elavil for 6 months now, and my doctor has wanted me to experiment with coming off it. So far it has proved to be quite difficult and if it wasn't for my strong will and determination, I would have put myself back on it several days ago. It's been 3 days for me being completely off of it. The first few days I was weening off it I started with cutting my pill in half, but it just felt like I was taking nothing. As soon as I started halfing my dose my headaches came back, irritabitity, shoulder muscle tightness, sensitivity to noise.

The only thing I am relieved about with the whole thing is that my uncontrollable hunger is finally going back to normal again. It's been a real struggle to maintain my weight or lose weight for that matter because Elavil makes you crave sweets like nobodys business and it shuts off the hunger switch in your brain that lets you know when you're full. I was never full!!!
So even though it seems that I am still having a problem with migraines, I am reluctant to go back to this drug now that I have gotten off it. I will probably see if they can put me on something different. I am somewhat afraid that the Elavil is the only drug that may work for my problem.
We'll see.

Britney Spears Womanizer Full Version hear it now!

I gotta tell ya I actually really like it!
have a listen. Let me know what you think!

Awakened by a ghost?

The other night I remember barely peeking open my eyes in our dark bedroom, beginning to awake in the middle of the night (which I never do) and I thought I saw something.... so I opened my eyes more and it was still there!

I saw a see through white, faceless figure that appeared to be about 6 feet or more tall, and even though it didn't have a face, I felt that it's eyes were fixed on me.

All I know was it scared the begebees out of me and I started tossing and turning, trying to scream but I didn't hear any sound come out.

My husband woke at that time and said, " what happened? you're okay, you're okay", I was crying. I felt very strange after that. I asked him what I did. He said I was screaming. That startled me and confused me even more because I know I didn't scream, or I didn't hear it anyway. There was no way I could sleep like that so I got up at that point.

When my husband woke up in the morning he asked me what I saw and I told him. I said I didn't understand because it was WHITE. I've never believed that there were actual "white" ghosts. I've only seen black figures before so to me this didn't make sense.

Well, my husband then told me that his dad used to see white ones, usually before someone died.

I did a google search that day and found out all sorts of stories about these white figures I never knew anything about. I hope no one is about to die.

I Had a Dream...

Sounds profound, doesn't it?
Well that's what I thought the other night when I had this dream. At the time, I didn't realize it was a dream. It felt like it had really happened, until I was driving around town and I adjusted my rear view mirror and realized it wasn't broken! and it never was broken. See, the night before I had a dream that I was trying to adjust the mirror but it had broken off and was just hanging, so when I realized it was a dream that the mirror was broken, it just hit me like a ton of bricks and I was so happy!

I think anyone will tell you that dreaming of something like a rear view mirror is symbolic of looking back to your past. In my dream it had been broken... in the present, which to me I feel means that the past is done with and I am living in the now.

Thank God! For so long my past has bound me and I really feel this was a sign that it is behind me now, and I had the dream to put things to rest and to encourage me, and that it did!

Hollywoodprofiles.com thieves

This morning I woke up to find that after telling them a thing or two about what I thought about their shady company, they discreetly put my money back in my bank account. So now I'm happy, but want everyone to know what they really are before they make the same mistake I did.

It started with receiving an e-mail (junkmail) which I clicked on in curiosity and it took me to a no risk sign up page. 100% satisfaction guarantee (lol!)

I filled it out and then it directs you to a page to give them your credit card information for only $1.95 for membership to their site. Sounded like a good deal, so I did it. I've spent more money on mocha's at starbucks after all.

I signed up and didn't give it another thought. I have several profiles on the internet, most of them are free so didn't think this was a big deal or any different at all until..... I saw my bank statement 14 days later where they charged me $50.00!!!
for what??? I never got anything for $50.00. So after spending hours and hours and days trying to get a person on the phone for this company, I finally get a hold of someone that was very cocky and wouldn't even cancel my membership!!! She ended up hanging up on me after waiting on hold for an hour even waiting for someone to pick up. Boy then I was mad. So I called back, waited on hold forever again, and tried it all over again. I was very nice but told her that what she was saying didn't make sense. She again agrued with me about canceling my membership and the fact that they have to charge me $50.00 for nothing because they can. I finally talked this one into cancelling my account, but why did that have to be debated? I'm confused? I'm sure it has something to do with, ... oh I dunno, money maybe?
But she told me I didn't qualify for a refund because you have to do it within 14 days. I said "well isn't this day 14???" and so we argued about that for a while and finally gave up on the poor girl and hung up.

So I thought I would call back AGAIN and just talk to a manager or supervisor. I talked to a guy named Mike who seemed smug and proud of his cheating company. I said I just need to talk to a supervisor or manager please. He asked me what the problem was, so for the 3rd time, I told the problem. Then he said he couldn't help me. I said again, I just need to talk to a manager. He told me that I didn't qualify to talk to a manager. LOL! qualify. I laughed. I've never heard of having to qualify to talk to a manager LOL! So I told him if he was gonna steal my $50 bucks I think that's bought me the right to speak to a manager! he still said no, so I told him how his company was a bunch of thieves and he hung up on me. LOL.

In the end though, they gave me my money back because they knew I was right. Hollywoodprofiles.com are thieves. Beware and I hope I prevent someone else from making the same mistake that I did signing up with them in the first place.

Can Financial troubles actually make you closer?

I know my husband loves me, but there are some things that I have chosen to keep from him (financially speaking), thinking that if I told him he would just be mad at me and I'm sure a lot of you if you are honest have done the same at one point or another.

I stay at home all day and so I am on the internet a lot. I came acrossed this site www.hollywoodprofiles.com through an e-mail sent to me that offered free membership to help find casting calls. Well, why not? is what I thought. I do have my own agent but I have quite a few profiles out there to get my face shown more so why not one more? so I went to their site, where then they said it would be $1.95 for the whole membership to their site. Well, I didn't think $1.95 was much, so without telling my husband I went ahead and did it! I actually never ended up going back to that site, until....

I get an e-mail saying that they are going to automatically take $50.00 out of my account!!!

There is no where on their shady website that says you will EVER pay any more than the $1.95, but I suppose the $1.95 was a bait so they could steal a larger sum of money.

So I tried to go to the site to cancel my membership... there IS no where to cancel. I try to e-mail them, but the e-mails are apparently FAKE.

So I did some research on the company and found they had several complaints, and at that point realized I was a victim of fraud. Great.

I checked with the Better Business Bureau and this company has an unsatisfactory rating. not only that, but their business hides under a number of different names so they can continue to take money from your account month by month. Since I had already heard the horror stories, I went ahead and cancel my bank card so they COULDN'T take money out.

The point is, the $1.95 quickly became $50.00 without my knowledge, but I still felt guilty for buying into it in the first place, so I didn't want to tell my husband and just wanted to fix it on my own. My husband was initially upset because I wouldn't tell him what was wrong.

Well, I don't like to keep things from him, nor do I think it's the right thing to do, but I was already under a lot of stress trying to fix the problem and didn't feel I could handle anymore stress if he were to be upset with me.

So when I finally calmed down enough, I told him what had happened, thinking he would be very upset with me. Instead he told me it was okay and that he was just sorry I didn't feel like I could come to him with something like that and hugged me. I was just so grateful and relieved that he didn't blame me I just cried and told him I was sorry. I felt so much better and so much closer to him after I got that off my chest it was amazing to me. I always try to avoid conflict but I suppose if you have a loving partner, it will only make you stronger.

THE CREEPY

I've know for quite some time now that for some reason, my husband and his family are more 'in tune' to paranormal.

My husband talked about a time when he was a child when he felt someone or something drag him under his bed. He has seen dark shadows walking acrossed his house, and so has his father.

I've never seen anything at all like that, but then again, I don't want to either! It scares the daylights out of me! But I have had some experiences that are similar to some of his that make you really think.

for instance, he was about 17 when he got appendicitis and was in the hospital, and while his mother prayed over him to stop the tremendous pain he was in, he said that he saw a black cat jump off of him, and the pain was gone and he passed out.

I thought his story was interesting because I had an experience when I was pregnant with my second child, where I woke up startled in the middle of the night because I saw a black cat jump ON me. I thought it was just a dream or something and didn't think anymore of it, but when I woke up the next day, I became really ill for the next 7 days. I was losing weight, I couldn't eat anything or even hold down water, and had to be admitted into the hospital. To this day I believe what I saw that night had something to do with my illness.

I began thinking of these instances again lately because I was walking through the living room and my husband said, "whoa, what was that?!" and I was like... "what?" and he said he saw a black cat jump off of the tv. I was scared because I don't take these things lightly, and so tried to pass it off and just told him his eyes are playing tricks on him. I think we do that a lot because of fear. Pretend like it isn't there. But we can fight against it by simply praying, and those things must flee. They may come back, but for the time you can get them to leave.